Nothing like spring and the signs of new life to get you thinking . Had a lovely walk on the beach but can barely move now and I guess the increased pain has got me thinking about what is going on in there . Whilst I didn’t have many symptoms of Delores I’ve been largely getting on with things but as the pains been getting worse I’ve been forced to face it . I had a scan onThursday and now we wait for the results . Daft worrying really as I can’t change the outcome - if Delores has spread the only option is still chemo .  Also at the end of August it will be a year since my diagnosis which reminds me the prognosis was 12-18 months. Anyway enough doom and gloom , time for more morphine and hanging out with my family